A few years later, I moved to Austin to start my "new" life at my dream school. The time had come to pick my own church (I thought it was a sign of the independence I wanted so badly). So I prayed, went on my COGIC church hunt (because that's what I know oh so well), and He sent me...to a baptist church. Stayed there, grew a bit, & long story short, when I move back to Dallas, I'll join a non-denominational church (wasn't that quite the ride). Now, this is a lot of transition, & it hasn't really made sense over the years. However, my church..."progression" (for lack of a better phrase), has taught me a lot about life, & the limitations that we put on God. Let's chat about that for a minute, kay?
Now, please don't misunderstand me, I LOVE the COGIC church! Most of my ministry mentors (that don't actually know me lol) are from the COGIC church. If you've been to any college choir's gospel fest with me, I make it known that I'm COGIC born & raised. It will forever be apart of me (it's already in me...too late now haha), but it wasn't until I got to college that I felt & got to know God outside of the COGIC church. It (lowkey) amazed me that He was the same (*dramatic gasp*)! Same God, different church. I recognized that while we may love to believe it sometimes, God isn't COGIC. He's also not baptist...or episcopalian, or any other denomination. God is...God. And more importantly, He'll meet you right where you are.
I'm extremely confident that the church I'm about to join is where God wants me to be for this season of my life. I'm not moving to spite anybody, or to run away from my past. I'm going there because that's where God has instructed me to go (that's the important part). But...what if I had said no? What if I was still driving around Austin looking for the COGIC church of my dreams? What if I was so stuck on what I grew up with that I never thought to look outside of the bubble? I would've either missed or severely delayed my destiny. The transition would've been a lot harder (if in no other way than the change in service times...11 became 10, & 10 is now 9...sweet Jesus). I wouldn't have been so receptive. I definitely would've been scared, and I wouldn't have been confident in the fact that this is God's direction, not just my feelings from 7 years ago. Isn't it crazy how He works? Isn't it cool (...and slightly terrifying) that the God we want, the experiences we need, and the growth necessary for our next season may be right outside of what we've always known?
I think that's what a lot of us fail to recognize: God is bigger than what He's done for us. We (well, I, let me not put that on yall) have a tendency to only define God by what He's done, not necessarily what He's capable of. Do you necessarily have to be broke to know that He's a provider? Do you have to be raised from your death bed to know He has healing power? Or, beyond that, is God only a provider because that's what He's done the most in your life? I think that in this season, God wants to show us (or maybe just me) that He's bigger than whatever He's done in the past. He's bigger than His history with you. He's been doing this a while. Suga, wherever you are in your journey, you've barely scratched the surface of His power.
You may not struggling to find a church home. You could be right where God wants you to be concerning that area of your life. If so, stay there!!! It may be you've just gotten stuck in another area of your life. It may be that some your relationships seem...off. It could be that the life plan you've always had isn't making much sense anymore (because He's leading you somewhere you've never been). Could it be that you've trusted God with one specific area of your life long enough, & He wants to show you a different side of Him? A lot of us have gotten so used to praying for our finances, families, peace, etc. that we could recite our nightly prayers right now. But in this moment, I think that God is ready to show us that He's bigger than what we're used to. He's bigger than your church. He's bigger than your problem. He's bigger than your past. He's bigger than your expectation. The God that will blow your mind? Oh, He's right outside of whatever box you've (unknowingly) put Him in.
When we tell God to have His way, we have to understand that His ways are higher than ours. His ways can extend sooooo far beyond our boxes, and that's a good thing, because it backs up the fact that He can do exceedingly abundantly above all we could ask or think (Ephesians 3:20). It means that He can find or make a way that we don't even see. Saying that (and actually meaning it, versus just saying it because it's something we heard in church) gives God full reign over all of our lives. It gives Him a chance to show us what all He can do, and not just what we've seen Him do before. It makes no sense to ask God to do something new in our lives, and expect Him to do what He's always done. Why ask Him to take a old route to a new destination?
This week (just for this week, kay?) I dare you to trust God with an area of your life that you haven't fully opened to Him yet. I dare you trust Him for something outside of the usual. I dare you to expect something new from Him. Something big, simply because He's big. Has He not proven His ability to pay your bills? To keep you when you're lonely? To heal you when you're sick? Is He not bigger than that? He's not just a bill payer & "doctor in the sick room", is He? If we're going to say that the God we serve is so massive & can do so many things, we're going to have to open our lives up to be a testimony to that (because your testimony could reach your peers in deeper places than the borrowed testimonies of your mama & big mama...if you tell it). We're going to have to step out of our comfort zones. If He's really that big (which He is), why won't you give Him everything (like, for real), & trust Him with it? He can handle it...I promise. Let's start something new!!
Background music for this week: Big by Full Gospel Baptist Church Fellowship..Choir (lol)
**now when you sing it, or listen to it....think about how big he really is...and apply THAT God to everything happening to your life. I guarantee you, your issues, insecurities, and worries won't stand a chance ;-)**