Telling people that I'm in law school is an interesting experience. There's this never failing 'oooohhh' effect. It's always amazing to me that the very thing that I honestly didn't think I'd survive is what makes people think I'm so fancy. Apparently, law school is a big deal (lol). People always seem so....impressed, you know? Meanwhile, in my mind, I'm like "chiiiiiiiiil' if you only knew how He carried me here."
I remember so many occasions in the fall in which I'd be up until about 3 or 4 a.m....feeling like I'd made a very expensive mistake. I didn't feel like anybody's hero. I wanted to quit. I'd been tossed into a game I never learned how to play. Ummm. God, what are you doing up there?! BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS IS ALL SUPPOSED TO WORK! I'm not cut for this, there's another route, and I'm going to find it. This right here? NOT WORKING. AT. ALL. Every time I had an in-house meltdown, God would answer in one way or another with 'my grace is sufficient.'
Everything I've done, everything I've achieved, I've achieved through His grace. I try to avoid boasting about what I have & what I've done, because I didn't do it; His grace did. His grace is what's enabled me to push past what I feel and into His power. His grace encouraged me when I couldn't encourage myself. His grace has kept me. It's supported me. Literally, everything that people 'admire', etc. about me, I've done through His grace. With all of its hills, valleys, mountains, and setbacks, I've been graced for this journey...and so have you.
Think about all of the things you've been graced to do. Some of y'all have amazing jobs. You've got great spouses and families. You've survived what you may describe as pure hell (multiple times). People around you have died, quit, or lost their way, but look at you....standing on grace. With all that you've achieved, you, like Paul in 2 Cor. 12, could probably brag a bit, but recognize that all that you have is a product of His grace.
I didn't want to take up a lot of your time, but before I go, I want to remind you to lean on His consistent grace. Ready to give up? His grace is sufficient. Don't know what's next? His grace is sufficient to carry you through uncertainty. Wondering how you'll handle the next level He's calling you to? Remember that His grace has brought you this far, so it can definitely keep you in the future. I've learned that there's not a problem, worry, or issue that His grace cannot handle and see us through. So in your low moments and seasons, never forget that God has already spoken victory over you, and is consistently saying "...my grace is sufficient for you." His strength becomes perfect in your weakness. He does His best work when you can't do yours. So in your weakness, tap into His grace & His strength, because it has been, and will forever be....sufficient to turn an overwhelming storm into an overwhelming victory (Rom. 8:37 NLT).
You may not feel good enough for this, but you are graced for this!!
Words from the Author
At the end of the day, these posts are the thoughts that run through my mind. These are the lessons I've learned. The doors that I've walked through. The path I've chosen. This is part of what it means to be me. Hopefully, it'll help you be...you. Let's grow together, kay?
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